insecurities.

so, here it is. this is what i feel THE MOST.

yeah, its not. I WANT TO BE PRETTY GORGEOUS HOT OR SO WHAT EVER IN EVERY SINGLE MOMENT. i just, want to be pretty ONCE. once is enough. I've took about 100 million pictures of myself and there's only one of them that seems good. 

and that's why im really good in crying. i've started to cry whenever my insecurities comes. feels like i dont want to be in school. and that's also the reason why I HATE TO HANGOUT.  I HATE TO TAKE A WALK. I HATE TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP.  INSECURE. 

and, what i hate most is. WHEN IM ALL ALONE AND NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME. and when my friends ask me what's wrong with me. i was like. ...................... if i tell you, you will hate me. then my tears start to falling on my cheeks. and i felt like im THE WORST GIRL ALIVE. 

DONE.