Dear Brother.

okay, maybe kali ni aku post pasal something yang agak touching sikit. haha. jarang nak tengok aku berjiwang cenggini. ceceh. k.

Dear, Muhammad Haikal Asri.

and i know, you'll be like 

duhh, i said that to me too. ah. but who cares? 

I was hoping that you will be like my friend's brother. 

I was.

I was.

and, I am. 

I'm really hoping. 

but..

I've been wondering, why you hate me so much?

what makes you hate me?

Is it because the way I'm laughing? singing? talking? breathing?

or you hate me just the way I am?

I may not good as your girls friends. not cute as them. 

but please,

just please. 

Im a human. I have a heart. I have feelings.

Dont treat me like Im not.

Is it because im your sister? then you need to hate me?

Im a pathetic girl.

IM THE WORST GIRL ALIVE.

even my brother hates me.

"I remember that day when you said that Im your maid. you said that in front of your friends. yes, you did. did you know what im feeling inside? did you know how many nights i've been wasted my tears just because of you. it may sounds stupid to you. I know. you said that im not your real sister. your sister is dead. im adopted. Im ugly. is it so hard to treat me just like the other brothers did to their sisters? to protect? where are you? it really hurts."

And,

you said.

You never have a sister like me. 

sincerely, a stranger inside your parents' house.